31st July Thursday                                                            current music: none

I can do nothing...... :(

27th July Sunday                                                            current music: Imogen Heap "The moment I said"

Sunday, 7:10pm, office 118. A strange feeling arose. I guess it was a feeling of nostalgia for a time when I knew I'd feel nostalgic later. Am I doing too much? Then why I feel tired? ...... As evening fell. A maiden stood. At the edge of a wood. In her hands lay the reins of a stallion. Heard a gentler voice anywhere. Whispered, alas. She belonged. Beloged to another. Another, forever. ...... For what I think, anything that is special in me, is you!

24th July Thursday                                                            current music: none

Starbucks us!

23rd July Wednesday                                                            current music: Keith Jarrett "My Song"

CA1419, Beijing-ChongQing: Year 2005, Spetember 26th, I bought a single ticket for Keith Jarrett's solo concert at Carnegie Hall, LA. I planed to have a two-day trip there. But I couldn't make it since ubyssey paper production. This unattended concert of Keith became my biggest regret. This year, I bought EMC's CD for the Carnegie Hall concert in Vancouver. I haven't had a serious listen untill my recent 3 hours filght. And this, is the finest solo recording to me and in many ways, both technically and thematically, this is what he was pointing toward with The Koln Concert 31 years ago. Breathless ecstasy hardly describes the supreme moments of exquisite perfection present in this record. Keith reaches beyond excellence and touches the divine in a spark of unequaled creativity born of an intimacy with music that defies definition on the mortal plane of existence. The Carnegie Hall Concert is completely overwhelming in the most beautiful of ways! Each phase of life has its own love, from idealistic romance to sexual jealousy, from desperate lust to relentless longing. So where to fit in?

20th July Monday                                                            current music: Keith Jarrett "Standard Vol.1"

I went to HongKong on the weekend of 19th, an unsurpassed journey which I will update in short time. A month ago, I went to Nanjing City and had a photo shoot for a stage dance called "The Peony Pavilion". Well, another soul touching love story. The show is on stage in Beijing from today and up to the end of July. It's so worth to watch, beautiful dance.

15th July Tuesday                                                            current music: Iron & Wine "Fever Dream"

11pm, yup, office, again. There are people waiting for me to have meeting but I told them to wait. I need to have a moment alone, to sort things out, to express my feelings. I try my best to make things perfect but most of the time, I failed, over-doing, or not on the point. Sometime, like now, I feel tired and I am frustrated. Can I, be honest, make my dream come true? What if I can't? Every bride is happy on her wedding day. She must be as well. :( You know the feeling that when you love something, that when you deeply fall in love with someone, that when you are sure you two are meant to be together, the feeling, the strong feeling. But, you have no control over the fate. You just can't stay together. You fight. You cry. You laugh. No use at all. When you face fate, when you face this fucking shitty reality, all you could do is either surrender or be toasted, or just simply be fucked up! How far can you go for love? I finally understand this question. It's not a question to ask for a single person. It is a question asking for two people and this question should be something like: How far can you TWO go for love? For one person, at least to me, there is no ending for pursuing his/her love. It's been a long day, a long day to me. Thank you sweetie for all lovely hearted messages.

14th July Monday                                                            current music: Iron & Wine "The sea and the rhythm"

I seriously hate to be apart. But to be frank, we didn't even have chance to be together. Life is interesting but short. Fate is more uncertain. There are times, we are closer than anyone in the world. There are also times, we are far away. Up and down, happy or sad, love is certain but reality is way overwhelming. What could I do? Just go, without fear. Can you give up what you dream about? I can't! 10pm, I am in office. Music is loud. The yard is so quiet. Rain is gentle. I, I just miss her ...... so much! Last Saturday, I finish processing Mr. WangYu's wedding photos. A sweet memorized day. I wish, one day, I could have my own family. And I wish, my wife would be no one but my little princess.

12th July Saturday                                                            current music: Jens Lekman "Team#7 to heaven"

Family dinner. Family happiness.

11th July Friday                                                            current music: Gnarls Barkley "Crazy"

Up till today, I didn't realize how much I actually miss her. So, beauty attracts beauty. Could beauty stay with beauty then? I love you!

8th July Tuesday                                                            current music: m-flo "Come Back To Me"

Sometime, photo reflects feeling. Sometime, photo reflects a true moment of my life. Most of the time, photo reflects my love, my missing. This time, this time, photo reflects her. I am a photographer. After all, I speak photos.

7th July Monday                                                            current music: Sophie B. Hawkins "As I Lay Me Down"

I went to ShangHai to attend this exhibition for 3 days. I've been inspired by some of the works there and I think no matter how hard it will be, I will go into the photography as professional as possible.

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